It's that time....

Okay almost that time. In 8 hours......... Ladies night........ Free drinks from 7 p.m. to 11 p.m. Marisa and i have a ritual every wednesday. We do this count down. She comes into my bedroom every wedenesday morning. Saying faye do you know what today is? As i lay in my bed. Yeah marisa i know what day it is. The last few wednesday's she has been passing out on the toilet. Her head is laying on the seat. Because she can't handle the captain. lol. I will leave you with a photo of me and my naughty little goldfish. Doing are goldfish faces. Mind you i am way kind of drunk. But i love to embarass myself. So here goes. Like i said i am a tard. And i so donot know how to do this photo thing.

BRRRR.....

I wanted to share with you..... How cold it is and how much snow we got last night. And how we warm up in these parts. We have a gas fireplace. Where my abby is now laying in front of to warm up.

I am such a tard...

Since i don't know how to go back and fix it. In the post My son and his family. I wrote that darrion is my step grandma. That is a typo. He is my step grandson.

Friday Night

So we went bowling on friday night. Travis, Jessica, Darrion, And mom (ME) We bowled 2 games. Of course travis won both games. My son thinks he is funny. When he put my name into the computer. He had it set up when it was my turn to bowl that the bumpers would come up. And thank god we forget the camera. I could never get a strike but i had like 5 spares each game. I know i so do suck at bowling. And i don't even care. I bowl to spend time with my family. Although my children love to make fun of me. And i am okay with that. Because that means we are having fun!

My Son and his family

This my oldest son travis and his family. At monster jam. I love the look on my grandson's face. Darrion is my step grandma. He some times get's really mad at me. And he tells me that he is going to hang me up with a big blue truck. That his papa uses for logging. I just wanted to share photo's of my son's family. And my grand daughter aubrie will be here soon. I can't wait. And yes i will be sharing all the photo's of my grand daughter's arrival. Maybe not all of them. But most of them.

Another......

Because i am a tard. I really don't know how to move my photo's.

This is me and my friend marisa. We have so much fun going out

On wednesday night's. And since i really don't know what i am doing.

And that i don't have alot to write about. I need to be cleaning instead of

Writing on my blog. Beside's i really messed up this post.

Can you Believe......

That there is alot of stupid people in minnesota? Yesterday i seen alot of stupid people out on the lake ice fishing. Mind you there is only 2-3 inches of ice on some lakes. The lake i live on hasn't even froze over yet. And my son wants to go ice fishing so bad. Yes we live in one of the coldest states. But you wouldn't catch me on 2-3 inches of ice. It's not even that cold out yet. It hasn't even snowed yet. It has snowed but it has melted by the next day. Winter hasn't even started yet. Just wait.... It will get way below 30 then there is 30 below and colder. Can't wait for that.

Ultra sound photo's

Here are a few ultra sound photo's of my Grand daughter. I think she looks like her grandma.

I just wanted to share these with you. She will be here on april 4th. I can't wait until she get's here. She will be so spoiled by me. She will be the first girl in the family.

My Oldest Son Travis.

This is my oldest being himself. He is on his pit bike with the mullet wig.

He will be mad at me for doing this. Isn't he just the cutest? I am really surprised that he let us take this photo of him.

Oh Yeah....

The guy in the photo's that was making all the funny faces. That is jonny..... And he is my newest.... NAUGHTY PET.... He is my naughty little gold fish!

A Few Photo's from Last week's Ladies Night...

I only have these photo's from ladies night. So i will post the one's that i have.

I don't have the photo's that i wanted. I am working on getting those. The last photo is of my girl's. Liz is the one in the green, Stacy is in the middle, And marisa is the last one. And yes that is the liz that was biting me.

For those of you who......

Read my last blog. That i just deleted. I did not relize that the last part was on there. Before i hit publish. I was talking to one of my sister's on yahoo messenger. And evidently i typed in both boxes. "MY BAD", And ladies night was a blast. And there are alot of photo's. I cannot believe i did half of the things that i did. I did have fun. The last bar that we went to that night. Was in my home town. After i get the photo's and share them with you. You will understand. I ran into the guy that i had the biggest crush on thru out high school. And liz came up to me out of the blue. And she bite's me on the neck. (While i am talking to this guy) I said joking around ooh do that again. So liz did so but not on my neck. She bite's my boob instead. And this guy said wow faye is that your girlfriend? I said um that would be a NO. So now he thinks that i am into girls. Which for the record....... I LIKE MEN!!! Okay here i go rambling on. When i just wanted to clear up the messed up post from wednesday. I would of done it earlier like the next day. But i had such a flipping hangover. That it hurt to even sit, stand, basically it hurt my head to do anyhing. And friday when i tried to get on the computer. It was infected with some spyware crap. And a thousand other viruses. That my son went out and bought a new tower. And noone can go on facebook. Or my yearbook. I don't go to either one so i am good. There i go again rambling on again. Okay this time i really am going to go. I have laundry to finish up of my son's.

LADIES NIGHT.......

Tonight is Ladies Night at the Creek Tavern..... So Marissa and I are going! Free Drinks Can't Pass that up! My son and his girlfriend said jeeze Mom you clean up nice. I said I knowwwwwwwww! I just thought i would write about it. Besides everyone here namely shonda and mike are arguing and there pissing me off.

Finally Have a name for the baby....

My grand daughter is due on April 4th, 2009. And last night my son travis said it was his decision on the name. He was tired of everyone picking names out. So the name he picked out is Aubrey Ann. Her intials will spell out AAH. I pointed that out to him. We both kind of chuckled.

My Nephew Daniel on Halloween...

Daniel dressed up as a professional dirt biker with a Mullet!! He is going to kill me once he finds out i put this my blog. I think he is so cute!! We Made him pose for the photo! So Daniel if you come across this i do love you much!!!

ABBY!!!

This is Abby!! The first Photo is of My 3 year old Grandson Darrion and abby. And the 2nd one is just of my girl.

GRRRRRR.......

My Niece Shonda, Has brought her cat to the house. We are not very happy about that at all. Her Damn Cat is INFESTED WITH FLEA'S!!!! And she don't get it that my son travis don't want her (The CAT) In the house. Abby don't have flea's. And The DOG come's first. I LOVE ABBY!! She is a pure bred Black Lab. I will have to see if travis has and picture's of her so i can post them. When i find them i will put them up.

Deer Hunting Season....

Deer Opener.. My Dad's hunting party actually got all there deer this year. 6 Bucks. No Noone got a doe permit this year. All the years i have been around deer hunting. I never really actually thought about the poor deer. Until last night. Was the first time i ever had to help my brother in law hang 3 deer from the garage rafters. By the time i was finished helping him. I was all full of blood. Deer hair. And did you know that when you kill a deer that there tongues hang out? That is the most disgusting thing ever. My sister took pictures of me getting totally grossed out by helping. But she is emailing them to me. And i really truly don't think i will posting them anyways. That's about all i have to write about for now.

November 3rd...

It has been 9 years since i even wanted to use meth. I haven't touched it since november 3rd, 1999. I have lost everything and everyone that I Love more then life itself. Because of it. If i would of known back then that this drug would change my life. I would of never used it. I can't take back what is done. When i decided or should i say Court Ordered to go into treatment. I really didn't have alot of faith in myself. A friend of mine had also went into treatment for the same thing. And she started using the minute she got home. I did not want to get out of treatment. And start using the second i got home. My counsler asked me why i want to stay clean. My answer was..... I am here to get clean for my children. She told me that was the wrong answer. I said no it's not the wrong answer. I am here to get myself clean for them and only them. Alot of you know that my children with there father. Except for our oldest. We live together. I am getting off track.... Anyways 9 years later i am still clean. I have had alot of shit to deal with in the past 9 years. Somehow i did it. I don't need it. Nor do i want it.

Football sucks.....

I hate sunday's with a passion. All there is to watch is football. And The Minnesota Vikings really are not all that great. Granted i have no idea what's going on. But i do know one thing they sure do SUCK!!! I think my son likes to irritate me by changing the channel from one game to the next. So my plan for him tonight is to watch Toby Keith's premiere on cmt Beer For My Horses. Travis does not like toby keith. So it is payback time for the mom. This will be FUN!!

We are all moved in.

It seemed like it took forever to move in. It was only alot of work. And since i tore all the ligiments in my knee. Made it alot more work. There is Alot of stairs in this house. Last saturday my sister dawn came over and rescued me..... We went bar hopping and had alot of fun. We didn't stay out to late. But as she was pulling into the driveway. I said to her could you park any closer to the rocks? She said oh you have plenty of room to walk... Famous last words. I was carrying a case of beer mind you they were bottles the next thing i know i am laying face first in the driveway laughing my ass off... And told my sister see i knew you were trying to kill me. She comes back laughing did you break any of the bottles? I said i don't know if i did. Still laughing. So i get up my son is laughing at us. Because as i was kneeling down to pick something up my sister decides to get on my shoulders, We made it up the steps just barely. But we did. Okay i am rambling on and it is getting late. And i need to get rest. As my sister and i are off again tomorrow night to the local bar for a halloween party. And my son is going to be the sober cab.

Tomorrow is Moving Day...

Once again i am moving! This is a move that i want to make. I am slowly repairing my relationship with my oldest son travis. I am really looking foward to it. I am not looking forward to the constant cleaning up after everyone. But i look at it this way. It's going to be better then putting up with my mother.

For the last 2 weeks i have not been at my mother's. I have been out at my sister's house. Taking care of my nephew. Jaeden he is coming over to my house next week. So i can take him out trick or treating. I always take him out. I don't have alot to write about. Except for that i am very happy now that i am not constantly being bitched at.

I AM FINALLY OUTTA HERE......

I am moving in with my son travis and his girlfriend jessica. And Travis' best friend. I found out today that i was moving with them. Travis said mom i don't like how grandma bad mouth's you around me. And behind your back. So that's when he asked me if i wanted to move in with them. Of course i said yes right away. He is moving out of his dad's house. We are rent with option to own 5 bedroom house. I can't wait until october 24th. It already feels like forever.

I AM REALLY GOING TO EMBRASE MYSELF...

I dressed up in my niece kayla's chef's hat and apron last night. Cuz that's just me. And i was walking around my house saying. I amchef hong kong fooey..... And my nieces and my beloved son travis decided they were going to take pictures of me in this get up. All 3 of them were laughing and said come on mom and auntie smile. I said uhm yeah right. And i stuck my tongue out at them. Little did i know my niece's put this pic up of me on there myspace, etc..... So now like a dummy i am going to share with you.

This is me and my 2 favorite nieces.....

I know that it didn't turn out that great. It was very late. Kayla is the one holding the phone. Miranda is the tiny little twig. And then there is me. Who is not sticking her tongue out. Or smiling.

Today....

I spent the day with my son travis and his girlfriend jessica. We went and looked at houses for them to buy. Some of the houses we looked at should just be condemned. Then we went to Target, And walmart. Travis bought his grandma 3 fish and two aquariums and set them up for his mean ungrateful grandma. I am sorry but my mother is very mean, ungrateful,selfish. There is no nice way to say this she is just a BITCH! We took her to a thrift store today and my son was so ashamed and embrassed how his grandma was acting that he went out to the car because of his granmas behavior. No shit she kept calling this lady a you fucking horse get out of my way. I looked at my mom and said are you kidding me? She gave me a dirty look and said no she is a fucking horse. I just gave her a dirty look and told her to give me her stuff and her money so i could go pay for it. And sent her out to the car. How did i end up with such a mean mean very mean person for a mother? We made her stay out in the car when we went into walmart because of the scene she made on thursday. Travis said jeeze mom grandma is friggin mean! I said what gave you the first clue? We did have movie night tonight. Travis rented The Mist, The Love Guru, And Prom night. We watched the mist, and the love guru. I didn't care for the mist. And the love guru is friggin funny as hell. I have been spending alot of time with travis and jessica. I am so glad that travis is spending time with me. Last week he gave me all of his old jackets. He gave me a few of his columbia jackets. And 3 of his carhardt jackets. And right away my mom said to travis where are mine at? Travis said grandma you have jackets my mom don't and that's why i gave my mom those jackets. My mom needs something nice too. Needless to say this did not go over well with my mother. This is what she said to my son well i am tired of being treated like the red headed step child! Can you believe that? Even the clothes allen gave to me she did the same friggin thing. And allen said i am sorry arvona but faye comes before you do. and my mothers response to this was. Well when does the mom get the stuff before she does? Okay i am just going to stop right there. Because writing about it just pisses me OFF!

WELL....

I found out last week, That my son travis and his girlfriend jessica are having a girl. This makes me very HAPPY!!!! I have all boys. Don't get me wrong i love my boys. But my grand daughter is going to be so spoiled. Allen and i are getting her a crib for life. I asked him last weekend if we were going in on a gift for our grand daughter? He said well yes. I said good cuz i wanna get her a crib for life. Allen said ok but thise are spendy i said yes i know. I will give you half of the money for it. Allen said no you won't i will pay for the crib from the both of us. I said well i am not going to argue with you about it. As long as it is from the both of us. See i told you i would make him pay dearly for making me hide last weekend. And he paid in other ways too.

I AM STILL AT ALLEN"S

Yup i am still here... And i am spending the night again. Travis is bringing me home in the morning. Allen is with his mom and dad. They went to menards to get a dehumidifier for the basement. And yes i had to go into hiding while they were here. He said i didn't have too. That i was just here visiting the kids. I said uhm yeah that will fly. I am wearing your clothes. Cuz mine are all wet. Don't ask long story. Ok i will tell you. We were outside sitting at the fire. And i had to go to the bathroom. And i didn't want to go in the house. So my bright idea was to pee along side of the house. Well Charlie knock me over on my ass right into a muddle puddle. And that is my story and i am sticking to it.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME......

I am still here hiding in allen's room. It's going on 2 hours now. And i am having a real hard time trying to be quiet. I am so not good at being quiet.... DID I METION I HAVE TOO PEE, AND THAT I NEED A SMOKE. Allen is so going to pay dearly for hiding me from his dad. They really need to hurry up and finish putting that hot water heater in. Does it realy take 2 hours to put in a hot water heater? I could of had it done by now. And i wouldn't have to hide allen in my bedroom. From my parents.

THIS IS NOT EVEN RIGHT!!

Allen has me hiding in his bedroom. From his dad! His parents are weird. We are adults and he has to hide me from his dad. I asked him what are you going to get grounded for having me over? I have been in here for over an hour. Our son travis just got home. I wonder what he will think? After grandpa leaves? I am really starting to get kind of pissy.. Cuz i gotta be very quiet, I can't smoke....... AND MOST IMPORTANTLY I HAVE TO PEE!!! Hopefully i wont be in here for very much longer. If i am i will keep you posted.

LAST FRIDAY.......

I Spent the day with my ex. And our 2nd oldest zach. Allen had asked me if they could pick me up in the morning? I said well what time do i need to be ready? Allen said i will be there at 9 to pick you up. I said okay i will be ready.. Little did i know he wanted me to clean his house, Do his laundry, So i did all these things for him. Not only for him but for our children. He has a 5 bedroom house. All hardwood floors throughout the house. Which is nice to have but sucks to keep clean. There is 4 guys in the house and our oldest son travis' girlfriend. How do i say this in the nicest possible way....... THEY ARE ALL FRIGGIN PIGS!!!!! Allen said he would pay me to clean..... For all the floors nasty bathrooms, all the laundry i did. He Gave me 20.00, When he handed me the money i gave him a look and he said what? Alls i said was are you KIDDING ME? His reply was well i shouldn't have to pay you to clean up after our kids! Ok point taken Our boys are 20,17, 15. There is no reason under the sun that they cannot clean. So basically i got paid for washing his clothes, folding them and putting them away.

I did spend the night with him. Our boys where supposably at work. But they didn't come home until 2 a.m. Zach said his car broke down. I looked at my cell phone and his dad's cell phone and i said why didn't you call? And don't tell me you tried. Zach said he forgot too. Okay we will deal with it in the morning.

Allen and i did go out on his 4 wheeler, Which was fun i haven't done that in a long time. We went around the lake. It was kind of chilly. And when we got back we started a fire and sat out at the fire for 5 hours. We had a case of beer, And it was gone by morning. We had fun.. Until he gave me his password for his computer. And he didn't sign out of his yahoo. So i was being noisy and i went into his mail. I will leave it at that. Because what i found really pisses me way off,

TOMORROW......

Is Family day, My ex has asked me to come over for the day. We decided that we are going to do something as a family. So we are going to the lake. And we are going to go fishing and boating. I myself don't care for fishing. But our boys love to hunt and fish. My sister cheryl asked me is allen going to cook you dinner too? I said most likely. When we were together allen did all of the cooking. My children do not like my cooking. They perfer dad's cooking to mom's.


My mom told my oldest son travis. Your mom is actually beginning to be a good cook. Travis said all's my mom knows how to cook. Is Mac and Cheese. And he is meaning the box mac and cheese. I said jeeze thatnks travis, I can cook more then just mac and cheese. His response was mom you can't even boil water without burning it. One time i boiled water and i messed it up bad. Because i walked away from it. Because my 3 children cannot behave. And i destroyed a pot. I will never live that one down.


I Am kind of leary about going over there tomorrow, As allen's ogre likes to show up whenever she wants. And i really don't want to have to deal with her shit. I also have to worry about tim finding out that i am going over there. Tim i can handle. But the ogre i just don't know how much i can put up with. Before i have to hurt an OGRE!!!

I would never do that in front of my kids. I am just saying is all. I will write more tomorrow when i get home. Who knows maybe i will get lucky...... And i won't come home..?

School Shopping......

On monday allen took our boys school shopping. Alls he got them were two pair of jeans, A few skate boarding shirts. And each a pair of skate boarding shoes. Then after he purchased the few items. He then decides to call me. Telling me how good he did. My first question to allen was where did you go to go school shopping? His reply zoomies. I said you just went to zoomies? No i went to JC Penney also. My next question to allen was, Did you get them there school supplies? He said yeah i got them pencils and notebooks. I said to allen did you get them there graphing calculators? Folders? Pens? 3 ring binders? Well no not yet. I then said to him this is why i wanted to come with you guys to go shopping. MEN!!! I could of done way better then that. My boys start school september 2nd. Zach is going to be a junior. And justin is going to be a sophmore. Jeeze i am feeling kind of old.

WHY IS IT?

That when you and a best friend, Who happens to be a man. Are very attracted to each other. And then decide to be friends with benefits. We have been friends with benefits for over 3 years. But every time . Tim finds out that i have either talked to my ex or was with him for a few hours. That he gets all anal about it? He thinks that we are having sex. Which we are not. We have argued many many times over this. I have to keep reminding him that my ex is the father of my children. And from time to time i am going to have to talk to him. This is what i don't get......

Why does tim get so anal about it if we are clearly just friends with benefits? We do tell each other that we love each other. But that was only one time. And we both were drinking. To be honest i do have alot of feelings for tim. And i guess i do love him alot. I am thinking that tim is afraid if we become more then just friends with benefits. That i am going to hurt him and leave him for my ex. See allen, tim, and myself have been longtime friends. For almost 20 years. And yes we have always been attracted to each other. But we never crossed that line. Tim respected the fact that i was with allen.

I AM JUST REALLY REALLY CONFUSED!!!! AND I WANT MORE THEN WHAT WE HAVE RIGHT NOW!

Here is something my niece miranda wrote......

My niece miranda wrote this for me yesterday. She really thinks that she is a poet.

Faye you make my day!
But seriously go get some pay.
Then you can buy some mickey d's
Or maybe you can get some nice tees.

I heard the other day you got hired!
It was mickey d's so you got fired!

Maybe you need to get yourself a nice boy?
But this time faye don't use him as a toy!

You might think that brett is hot.
If you ask me his hair looks like a tater tot!

Just so everyone knows..... I used to call tim my boy toy. And that i never was fired from mickey d's. This is just something my niece does for fun. And i guess to tease me.

THIS MAN ROCKS!

I just thought i would share this with everyone! Matt Iseman is the funniest man ever. Well besides Pauly Shore. I have been watching the style network lately. And i have come to love the show CLEAN HOUSE. I can't believe people live like that. If you haven't seen this show you should check it out. It is on wednesday night's at 10/9 central on the style network. I really like mark burnetz alot too. But i cannot find a photo of him on the internet.

TODAY I FOUND OUT.....

Today we found out if travis and jessica were having twins. And it is just one baby! And her due date is April 6th, 2009 a couple of weeks after my birthday. Nothing like being 40 and being a grandma. I am excited! I told travis that i hope that it is a girl! I have 1 step-daughter , 1 step-son, And 3 boys. So the boys out-number the girls by far. But travis wants a boy. It don't matter to me if it's a boy or a girl. I will love he/she no matter what. And i can't wait to be able to spoil he/she. I don't have much more to say. So before i start rambling on about a whole lot of nothing. I am going to go.

GUESS WHO CAME TO SEE ME TODAY?

Today i spent the day with my ex. And it actually was a good day. It just wasn't allen and i. Our boy's were with us. (so nothing happened) We had a family gathering today. And i called and asked allen if i could get the boys for the day? He asked well why? And i told him why and i said you are welcomed to come if you want? And he said sure i will come. My brother in law jeremy said that he was there just to see him. Allen just kind of gave him a dirty look. And my sister dawn said yeah right jeremy. We all know who he is here to see.. That would be me!

Then allen asked me for jessica's cell phone number. She is our oldest son's girlfriend. So i gave it to him. He had called her so he could talk to travis. A few minutes later my phone rings and it's jessica. And she goes to me uhm who do you have over at your house? I said why? She said faye you better behave. And don't be doing something stupid. I said uhm yeah i plan on behaving.

Justin and i were sitting next to each other on the couch and allen was standing there and i said to him allen you can sit down here. I don't bite! He said i know better then that. You do to bite!
Ok i am rambling on. I had a real good day.

BABY NAMES FOR MY GRANDCHILD!!!!!

Travis and Jessica have come up with a whole 3 names for baby names..... 1 girl name and 2 boy's names. I will give you the girl name first. Sophia faye, and for the boy's names is Eli travis, Or Ethan travis. Jessica is set for the girl name. But for those of you who don't know is that we find out on the 12th of this month if they are havin twins.. Jared don't like the name sophia and after we talked about it. I don't think i like it much either. I am not to keen on the middle name either, Which is my first name. My name is on the top ten list of old names. Betty is number 1 my name wasw number 2.

I told travis and jessica that they better come up with a different name for me then grandma and nana! And granny! Because i didn't want to be called any of the 3. Jessica already informed me that her and travis have talked about it. Adn they both refuse to have my grandchild call me faye! That's what i was going for. But it didn't fly. So i need some suggestions on some girl names. Does anyone know the finish language? For grandma? My grandfather is from finland but he passed away before i was born. To know any of that.

THIS IS MY JAEDEN!!!!

This photo was taken around christmas time. I haven't seen jaeden since easter. Well except for today. I was so happy to see him. And my sister dawn! For those of you who know we were fighting big time. She called me last wednesday and she kicked her good for nothing boyfriend out. Whom didnot like me what so ever. He did however take advantage of me big time! For those of you who don't know this.... I was living with my baby sister to help her out with her 4 kids.

Well nelson her ex took advantage of me being there, To also take care of his daughter samantha. Which at first i didn't mind doing. He only had her every other week. But on his week i was the only one who took care of her. I would get her up in the morning made her breakfast. etc.... I even took her to the bustop. And i did her homework with her. While he was in his bedroom doing nothing. She would come in the door and said faye this is what i have for homework. So i would help her. I didn't even get one thank you or faye you don't have to do that. Sorry now iam getting way off track.. Anyways i got to see my tater today!!! And boy did i miss him!!!!

When he left tonight he said bye auntie I LOVE YOU!!!!

I ALSO SPENT.....

The day with my oldest son's girlfriend. Jessica she called me at 7:30 this morning and said. I don't have to work today. I said ok and jessica said faye is it alright if i go to the hospital with you and grandma? I said yes you can. She don't like staying at allen's house without travis. Because the ogre is still there.

And jessica is starting to feel really uncomfortable around her. The ogre asks her non stop what i look like? Jessica tells her i dont know what you want me to say? I tell you what she looks like and that is not good enough for you. My question is why does the ogre care what i look like? I asked jessica that? And she told me faye all allen does is talk about you non stop. And she feels really threatened by you. I couldnt help but laugh not out loud though. But i did.

The ogre is pissed because allen and i are going in on buying our grandchild a crib. And a few other things. And that pisses her off. It also pissed her off because i am having the baby shower at allens house. And she is not to be there. And allen isnt going to be there either. She said why didnt anybody get my approval on anything? And why is faye going to be at the baby shower? Uhm hello dumb bitch that is my son my grandchild. And i will be there. Allen said i dont need your permission. The last time i checked this is my house. And i gave you the boot.

Is it wrong for me to be happy that he talks about me non stop to her? Cuz it actually makes me feel kind of good.

This Morning....

I finally got my mom talked into going and getting that catscan done on her lungs! She has a mass on her left lung. So we took her to the hospital this morning to get it. I couldn't believe how fast they got her in and out of there.

We will get the results back in a few days. If it is lung cancer she don't want to have surgery. As she is to week. And she is afraid she wont survive the surgery. The doctor did say there is other treatments out there.

It has been a long 3 months. My mom has been really sick and she has a real hard time breathing. She says it is the humidity and her copd. Maybe so. She could be right. But she isnt getting any better.

A week ago my niece ashia and i had to take her to the emergency room. Because she could not breathe. We were there for a good 4 hours. Until they could get her breathing stablized. They wanted to keep her. She refused to stay. In the last 3 months she has lost 10 plus pounds. She weighs 85 pounds. This to me is not good. Ok i need to stop because i am just going to keep rambling on and on.

Darrion.....

He is not mad at me anymore! He told me today over and over again that he loves me!!!! I am good for now! I have him again for the night. He wanted to stay with me. He asked me tonight faye can i spend the night? I said you have to wait until i ask your mom if you can. Alls he could say was well how about yes! How could i resist that!

I STARTED....

To do daycare for travis and jessica this week. Darrion is the cutest kid ever! He is 3 years old! Every couple of minutes he says hey travis mom? I say what darrion? He replies I LOVE YOU! And i say to him I LOVE YOU TOO! But today was a different story. I asked him if he was mad at me? He said yes. I dont like you anymore. And you need to take me to travis dads house. He was mad at me because i wouldnt let him jump on the couch! I only have him every other week. He goes to his dads every other week.

I WENT SHOPPING......

Not really. I call it shopping. In my niece kayla's closet. She has alot of shoes! So today i went over to her house and went shoe shopping. I got a brand new pair of nike's and a brand new pair of puma's. They have never been worn. I tried to talk her out of her crocks. She wasn't having it. Kayla told me today how beautiful i was. I told her she needs glasses. She said no i don't auntie. I said yes you do and very strong ones at that.

My Ex....

Zach called me yesterday before they came over..... Zach said dad asked me to call you.... And he wants to know if he can come over? This shocked me! I said he wants to come over? Zach said yeah he does. I said where is the OGRE? Dad kicked her out. My response oh. And know he wants to come and see me? Zach said yes. I didnt give him an answer. I told the boys when they got to my house. That i dont know if i can have him around. Justin then said mom... Dad was going to come. But i told him that it wasn't a good idea. Thank gawd he said that! I might of done something that i would regret!

My Day of painting....

Just so everyone knows..... I really hate to paint. And i really hate when i have to paint for my mother. Because she is way to picky. Anyways Zach, Justin and myself. Were talked into painting 3 benches for my mother. I managed to get more paint on myself then on the benches. So did zach. Justin barely had any paint on his hands. He painted one leg to my 3 on one bench. Justin simply said mom i was taking my time to get it perfect for grandma vonna. I said yeah right. It took the three of us about 4 hours to paint 3 benches. I still have dark brown paint in my hair.

See i figured if i did a piss poor job on the painting. That my mom wouldn't want me to do it again. That plan failed big time. Because she just loves it.

I LOVE MY BRAT JUSTIN......

I love him because he is going to buy me a computer. That actually works! And mom proof.... His words not mine. I did tell him that i am going to pay him back. I tried telling him that he does owe 16 years in back mom support! We both started laughing. And justin said mom your so not even right.

In 2 days...

I will find out when travis and jessica's baby is due. She went to the doctor yesterday. And they couldn't tell by the ultra sound how far along she was. Travis said they will find out thru the bloodwork. Travis said she is only 3-4 weeks.


And starting next week.... I will have jessica's 3 yearold every other week. Travis called me on sunday. And asked me if i would watch darion after they move into dad's. Of course i said yes. And i will most likely be kicking myself in the ass. For saying yes. I told him i wasn't doing it for nothing. He said well duh.... I said i mean it. He got kind of mad at me. Why don't you think that i will pay you? I said uhm well i have borrowed you money that you still have not paid back. Because you said your my mom. I shouldn't have to pay you back. I am going to stop before i keep rambling on.

Saturday.......

I went over to my sister's cheryl's to help her pack and move out of her house. Her and dave bought a different house. Have i metioned i hate moving!!!! And that i really really hate mice!!!! And her house that we were packing up is a very old and very creepy house. That has MICE!!! And i wont go near her basement. I was down there once. So she could show me her new washer and dryer... I said to her cheryl i have a weird feeling being down here. And she said what. And i told her that it scared me to be down there. So i am going back up. I told her something just isnt right down here. And she said well thanks alot faye just leave me down here by myself. I said i don't have a problem leaving you down here by yourself. I told her and dave both i will help but there is no way i am going downstairs. Dave was calling me a big cry baby and a scaredy cat. I told him i was okay with him calling me that.

Friday Night....

I had spent the night at my niece ashia's house so she could go out with her friends. She wanted me to watch donovan. Well she went out got beyond wasted. And as she was trying to get in the front door. She actually went thru the front door. She didn't relize i had the door locked. And she took the door right off the hinges. Steve wasn't very happy about it. They live in a mobile home. It's an older trailer and it don't take much to take the door right off the hinges. Steve said she is not allowed to drink anymore. And gave his favorite auntie to be all the booze that they had in the house.

SHONDA IS REALLY......

Making me very angry! Today she had this bright idea. That she was going to go horse back riding. I gave her a dirty look..... And said your kidding right? Shonda's response no i am not. I said to her well you are not going. And as loud as she possibly could said why can't i? I said well that's a really stupid question. You are 19 weeks preganant and you wanna go horse back riding! After a few rounds of us arguing back and forth. She said fine faye you got your way..

I told her a few days ago... That i am not going to be the nice aunt anymore. And that i was going to start putting my foot down. I told her and her boyfriend that things are going to change. I am tired of listening to them fight on a daily basis. It's like friday night smack down at my house. Except it is an everyday thing.

I am done venting for now.

Shonda's Baptism.....

Well shonda finally got baptised last sunday. She has been dragging me to church for the last few weeks. I was really uncomfortable with the whole thing. She insisted her dad be a part of it. Which i was leary about. She is 17 and he didn't want anything to do with her for the first 16 years of her life. Why all of the sudden does he want to be a dad to her? And why does she even want to have him in her life?

Okay i was getting off the subject. Her baptism went alright. My cousin brian is her sponser. And emily is her other sponser. She is a family friend. I told shonda i wasn't going with her anymore. She asked me why? I said church is boring! And besides i need my beauty rest. I also told her that i was locking my bedroom door on saturday night. So she can't get in my room to wake me up. Okay i am babbling. So i am going to stop.

I Can't Wait!!!

Next week, I am going to have to start doing day care for my niece ashia. We agreed on a 125.oo a week. I feel guilty taking that from her. When i was doing day care for my sister dawn. I was lucky if i got 15.oo a day. Most days i was lucky if i got a pack of smokes. I had donovan on sunday. My niece turned 21 and she went to red lobster YUCK! And she agrees with me now. Because when she got back from dropping me off at home. She got sick.

I spent the day with her yesterday also. It was my mom's birthday. Yes we have 3 birthday's in a row. My son zach's is on the 19th, My niece ashia's is the 20th, And my mom's is on the 21st. It get's to be a little spendy.

I found out in a hurry that donovan who is 8 months old. That he enjoys biting his auntie! He got me in the face, knee, And chest. All in the same day. He laughed every single time. He didn't like it when i put his sunglasses on yesterday. He would pull them off everytime and throw them. I guess he didn't like me wearing them.

I hope your Happy Jared?

Okay jared i made my blog public..... Just for you! So now you don't have to log in.

Today is my son zach's 17th birthday. I called him this morning and i said Happy Birthday. I said to zach, Would you like me to sing Happy Birthday to you? He said no mom i'm good! And besides i really don't need a headache. And he goes mom you do know that your a horrible singer right? My son the comedian.


Last night when zach was at work... It was really slow. So they told zach to put on a pizza costume. And stand out at the corner.. I happen to drive by and see him. I shouldn't of laughed at him. But it was really funny. I took a photo of him in his pizza costume. But he stole my camera. So i couldn't put it up on my myspace. Or my blog. I will get it back. I also have it on my mom's cell phone. But me being dumb i can't figure out how to send it to my email.

Not even right!

I had zach and justin over on monday. And they informed me that there grandma and there dad. Went behind my back. To try to transfer custody of zach and justin. Over to there dad. The judge informed them that they need my okay. I knew this and so did zach and justin. They even told them that! But they thought they could do it without my knowledge.

This is why she (betty) started to let the boys come back over. She went against the court order. I was suppose to have them on mondays, wednesday's and all day saturday. Well she put a stop to that. Because allen was going behind her back. And was spending his week-ends with me. And betty is his mother. For those of you who don't know that. And allen got busted and went back to prison for a year. Not because he was with me. It was because he was drinking.

Anyways, Allen now has to find a non family member to serve me with a court summons. Usually they just mail them to you. So his ogre voulenteered to do it. Aleen just kind of gave her a dirty look. And said what do you have a death wish? His ogre then said i am not afraid of her.

After zach and justin told me this. I kind of started to laugh. And i said are you fucking kidding me? Is that why she called the cops on me. Cause she feared for her safety? Oh yeah i called her on saturday night. After i found out that she was beating on justin with a broom. And i basically told her. That i was going to come over there and shove the broom up her ass. And break it off. If she touched my son again. Allen was laughing in the background. He knew that i was beyond pissed. And he wouldn't get on the phone.

I also informed allen that he is not going to get my permission to have custody of our children. Until he get's rid of the OGRE!!! He did tell her on saturday when she told him to choose. She said it's me or your kids? Allen said i choose my kids! But yet she is still there. She wont leave. Little does she know. Allen has been talking to me! And no it's not like that. Our boys said what do you want to get back with dad? I said uhm that would be a no. I just like to piss his OGRE OFF. They asked me why? And of course my answer was Because i can.

I am going to be a grandma!

My oldest son travis told me on saturday. That i am going to be a grandma! I know this sounds stupid. But i am excited to be a grandma.

Tom.

My uncle's best friend. Just came over and said hi cutie pie. When can i babysit you? I am still laughing at him. When we were teenager's and our parent's were gone for the week-end. Yes my parents left 4 teenage girls home alone all the time. We decided to throw a party. And tom was there with my uncle. I was walking down our hallway and tom was down on all fours like a dog chasing me down the hallway. Trying to bite my ass. So i am guessing he want's to do the same thing. lol

I think i should be afraid... Very afraid.

Last week.

We did something different this year for the the 4th of july. We didn't go to the parade in delano. Instead of going to the parade we had a BBQ. At my niece ashia's house. Ashia and i had alot of fun. Me and ashia were drinking captian morgan. I told ashia that captian morgan is icky. So then she pulled out a bottle of vanilla smirnoff. Flavored vodka. YUCK!!! Don't get me wrong vodka is so my best friend. But i don't like flavored vodka.


We also had a fun trying to give sasha (my nieces cocker spaniel) a bath out side with the hose. Sasha didn't like that at all. She took off running down the street. We had to bribe her to come back with a rib bone. From the neighbor's BBQ. You should of seen the three of us trying to give an overweight cocker spaniel a bath. We had the whole neighbor hood laughing at us.

Onto a different subject.....
I just found out yesterday that i have to go to church on sunday! Shonda is getting baptized on the 20th of this month. Without my knowledge shonda set up a meeting for me with the pastor of my church. I haven't been to church in a very very long time. I can hardly wait. NOT!!!

My niece kayla passed her driver's test yesterday. And my sister cheryl called me and asked me if i wanted to go down to unique with them. So i went with. Kayla is a awesome driver. Except she likes to hit curbs. She claims they just jump out at her. Unique is a huge thrift store. I don't care for thrift stores. I hate thrift stores just as much as i hate garage sales. But i go to them anyways. I only go because my mom cant get around all that well. And i have been taking care of her since may. She has a walker. But she refuses to use it. Cheryl and i took her to the doctor a few days ago. My mom has lost 6 pounds in the last month. She now weigh's 89 pounds. And she also is refusing to get a catscan done. On her lungs. She has a feww notches on her right lung. And her doctor said you could have cancer. My mom just said i am not getting no catscan done. Nor am i stepping foot in a hospital. This really pisses me off she has lost 3 sister's to cancer and her mother. No matter what we say she is not going to do it. I just wanna shake her really hard and scream at her.

I just wish that she would do the catscan. enough about my mom.

Yesterday

I had donovan yesterday. And he is really something else. I love taking care of him. Except when it comes to nap time. Donovan would rather sleep in my arms. Then in his crib. Everytime i went to lay him down in his crib. He would start crying. And the minute i picked him up he fell right back to sleep. I did this two more times. Again same thing. So i decided okay i guess you the only way you are going to stay sleeping is if i continue to hold you. Thank god he only slept for 15 minutes.

I haven't had alot going on lately. I was with tim for a few days. It was great for a few days. But he is way to needy. And to tell you the truth i don't like to have to be the one who has to do all the work.

And thanks for the baby names suggestions. Jared! I was only teasing my niece with the names that i choose. And Leroy is my father's name. So that is why shonda came up with leroy for a middle name.

Saturday Night......

My oldest son travis called me.... And said hey mom and i said hey travis! Can you take darrion for the night? I said yes i can do that. When are you coming? We are on the way right now! I said oh you are on the way now? I am thinking to myself... He must of been pretty confident that i was going to say yes. So they get here. And before jessica and travis leave. I want the dvd player hooked up for darrion. Travis said no problem mom. So he hooks it up and leaves all this co-axel and shit hanging all over and on the floor. He said okay mom its done. And i said uhm no travis it is not done! All the co-axel and shit you left all over needs to be put thru the back of the entertainment center. He did not like this at all. He said yeah but..... I said no yeah but.. My hands are to big for that. I said well you could say hey mom i need some help? Ok i am getting way off track.


Anyways.... I kept darrion over night and travis called me a little after 10 and asked me if he was sleeping? I said yes. He said okay well just call me in the morning when you want me to pick him up! I called at 8,9,10,11,12 they finally showed up at 12:45 . Nothing like taking advantage!!!

So i said to him..... Is this what i have to look forward too? when this baby gets here? He said jeeze mom.. I said you know if this is going to ever happen again. You will be here at a set time!
Grrr....

Baby Names!

Most of you know that my 17 year old niece shonda is having a baby. I am now her legal guardian. Since her mother (my sister) one of my many sister's. Met this guy from ohio on the internet. And she decided after meeting him just once she was in love with him. And moved to ohio with him. And gave me guardianship of shonda.


She has two names picked out for her baby. The boy's name.... Brian Leroy (leroy is my father's name) And for a girl Amber Lynn. These are my choices for boy names. Hugh John i came up with this name. After both of my grandfather's (there middle names) And William Dunn After the babies father and great grandfather.

Girls name's i came up with. Ruth Helen (great grandmother from father's side) Esther Sue ( relatives from father's side) And Mabel Mae (again from father's side) My grandmother's name's are Martha Rose ella, And Alice Gertrude. Not useable names And my mother's name is Arvona Janice. Again not a useable name. Let me know what you guys think?

Besides i am just doing this to make shonda squirm. Big time. I told her to name the baby after her bestest auntie ever. And she won't give the baby my name. Who would name there child faye? That was my question to my parents. My aunt marie told me i was named after faye dunaway. But now i found out from my mother that she got my name from some romance novel. Jeez how lucky i got? NOT! I really hate my name. Cuz i will answer to hey or say or anything that even sounds like my name.

The photo's of my 3 son's

I just wanted everyone to know that the photo's i have up of my children are old photo's. These are the only photo's i salvaged. From my 4 year old nephew jaeden. When i was taking care of jaeden. We shared a room, And he would wait till i was asleep to look at the picture's of my babies. (his word's) I really miss him very much. I don't get to see him as much as i would like too. As my sister is pretty pissed off at me right now.


As i told her she was being an evil bitch. To our niece ashia, All because ashia won't hook her up with a fatty. Nor will anyone else in this area. I wonder why that is? This makes me very angry at my sister. I don't think it's right to ask your niece or nephew (my son justin) to hook your auntie up fat. And me being the mom of justin. I kind of went off on her. Not kind of .... I went off the deep end when she did this. And when our niece wouldn't do it for her either. She freaked out on her. Saying she was going to turn her in. This is why noone will deal with my sister. Wow i so did answer my own question.

So since i went off on her. She won't let me see jaeden. Ever since jaeden was born i took care of him. I worked the overnight shift at mcdonald's. And i would come home and take care of him. This saved my sister from having to pay daycare. A year ago when we were sitting outside. We were having a bonfire. Which usually means we were having a few beers. And out of the blue she said to me, You should really have jaeden. I said what? She said i want you to raise jaeden until he is 16? I said are you serious? Dawn said yeah i am. I said you already know the answer to that question. My sister has 4 children and she is 32 years old. Miranda is 16, Daniel is 15, Aaron is 12, And Jaeden is 4.

I have to change the subject. Travis my oldest son told me not to contact her anymore. To ignore her calls. And emails, and offline messages she leaves on my yahoo. He said mom i am really tired of how she treats you. He even called her and said to her damn dawn why do you have to do that to my mom? And she said since when do you care? Travis said i am tired of you making my mom cry. And you taking the only thing she has left in her life. Meaning jaeden. I still didn't change the subject.... I have a problem with that.

alot of you probably don't know the ages of my children. Travis is 20 and he will be 21 in january, Zach is 16 he will be 17 in july, And justin he is 15 he will be 16 in october.

I LOVE MY CRAIG!!!!

Craig is my gay bestest friend ever. I met craig 8 years ago. He was 16 years old and me 30 something. Craig was my boss at Mcdonalds. Yes he was my boss, Allen was very jealous of craig. And still is very jealous of him. I have pointed out over the years that craig is gay. But from the time i started to work at mcdonalds with craig, We had this bond..... A weird kind of bond. When i first met craig i really wanted to slap him hard. Everytime i bent over craig would poke me with a plastic fork, and make this funny sound. At first i gave him a funny look. And craig would say what mom you don't like that? And i said that would be a no..... After the first 3 months of craig doing this. I shocked him one day and said ooooooh oooooh do it again!!!

I got off track there anyways craig called me tonight he was very excited!! He met some guy down at the gay 90's a few weeks ago. And tonight was there first date. Craig is really excited! I am happy that he has met that special someone. I said to him well who is going to sleep with me when we get drunk? You see craig takes care of me when we get drunk together. And this means he gets me into my jammies, Amd puts me in bed. Oh and takes all the phones. So i can't drunk dial, Yes i am famous for that. And yes we do sleep in the same bed. And when we go shopping he comes into the dressing room with me.

I have seen him naked, He has seen me naked. And yes if i am wearing an underwire bra instead of a sports bra. (like i normally wear) He will feel my boobs all night. If craig don't like how a bra looks on me. I don't wear it.

My mom was here when he called. And she was not liking it at all. I don't care what way my craig swings. I will love him no matter what. 3 Years ago he bailed me out of jail. Craig will never judge me. He has always been there for me. And this is why i love my craig. He is my bestest friend ever...

YAY I GET DONOVAN THIS WEEK-END!!!!

Ashia came over tonight, I am so excited.... I get my punk the 2nd. for the whole week-end. I so cannot wait. I LOVE BABIES!! I love everything about babies. Most of all just the way my punk the 2nd acts when he sees me. Ashia says whenever she leaves him with any other family members he cries and cries... I said to her that's cuz it's not the auntie faye! Shw just chuckled! My sister cheryl even said on sunday, Wow faye should i be jealous? My grandson don't like anyone. I said to my sister i aint just anyone! I is the number ONE auntie!

On sunday donovan was sleeping on my shoulder for 30 minutes or more, And my sister comes in and whispers into donovan's ear wake up grandma is here. He didn't even budge. Cheryl said that's odd. Everytime i say that too him he wakes up.

Cheryl did this 4 times. on the 4th time i woke him up. My punk the 2nd was not happy! I said donovan your granny is here. My sister got mad at me! I said well you are a granny? And she said well you are a great aunt. I said yes i am but i am only 39. My sister cheryl is only 3.5 years older then me. And ashia pronounced (asia) and my son travis are only 6 and in half months apart. And for the people that dont know travis is the 1st boy in the family. My dad had all girls. I was the first to give any boys. MY dad hs 6 grandsons. 5 granddaughters, and one great grandson. So i was the first to give any boysw at all.
And then there was my evil baby sister who followed suit with 3 boys. travis is the on ly one to carry on our last name. Besides the few male cousins i have from my father's side.

I CAN"T BELIEVE....

So i just got a phone call from my son justin. He said mom this is going to sound really bad. I need to ask you something? I said ok what is it? Justin asked mom will you please buy me some alcohol? I automatically said are you kidding me? His reply was no. And my response to him was NO! And he goes come on mom i will buy you some too. I said no justin i don't need any alcohol. Well i will buy you a pack of smokes. My answer is still no i said. Mom i will be there in a half an hour to pick you up. I told him you are welcome to come over. But i will not buy for you.

As the conversation goes on. He then said to me your not being fair mom. I said you are ony 15 years old justin i don't have to be fair. So i most likely wont here from him anytime soon. I mad the comment why don't you ask your dad? I also said you should put your dad on the phone so i can discuss this with him. I also told him justin i am not your best friend. I am your mom!

I just can't believe that my 15 year old son would actually think i would buy for him. Justin tried the guilt trip on me. Ever since his dad got out of prison. He has been in and out of trouble. And i just don't know what to do anymore. I don't like the road he is going down. I just want better for him. I don't want him to make the same mistakes that me and allen have made.

I just don't know if i should call allen and let him know what is going on? And make him aware that our son is drinking.

Unknown Callers.

I really hate to answer my phone when it comes up as unknown caller. Unless i know the number. Zach and justin calls come up as unknown. Shonda answer the phone and she said yeah faye is here. May i ask who is calling? He told her his name. And said yeah jay she is here. So i get on the phone. And he was trying to collect $200.00 for the wright county jail. I just kind of laughed. And said well if i had the money i would of paid it. Then he gotta kind of bitchy. After he got down with whatever he was saying. ( I wasn't listening to him)

I said you do what you gotta do. And before i hung up on him. I said in my smart ass way, What are you going to put me in jail?

I thought it was funny. He didn't. It's been kind of quiet around here today. So i don't have much to write about.

I really thought that tonight was going to be arguement free. What a joke! The four of us decided that we were going to watch a movie together. And mike brought out the movie he thought we all would like. It's called Taking lives i read the back of the movie case. And i said yeah that sounds like a good movie.


A few minutes later shonda said come on mike let's go and watch a movie by ourselves. Which i could careless if they stayed out here and watched a movie. Or go into there room to watch one.
Mike said no i am staying out here to watch a movie with grandma and faye.

This started monday night raw in our house. Actually what started it was that i picked up the phone to make a call. And shonda was on the phone with some guy. This pisses mike off. See shonda will call other guys when she want's to piss mike off. And tonight i think she pissed him way off.

Mike is actually packing up all of his shit. Which is okay with me. I went into her bedroom and said is this what you call love? You two are always arguing. You both are to controlling. And i am really friggin tired of hearing the same arguement day after day.

Shonda said please tell him he has to stay. I said uhm that would be a NO. Then she goes into hysterics. Please oh please i love him so much. If he leaves i have to give this baby up. Cuz i cant do it on my own. So i finally said to her. Your not giving that baby up! I will take care of your baby and you.

She is threating him with there baby. And that is not fair to any of them. I just dont know what to do anymore. Girls are way to complicated for me. And way to much work. This is why i was blessed with boys. There are so much easier. Way easier!!

Charlie

I have been taking care of my mom's grumpy old dog. As she can't have him at her apartment. Charlie loves to keep the cat's inline. Poor sammy and jasmine. They can't even come down the hallway. And good ole charlie. Jumps off of the couch and start's his bitching and chasing them down the hallway. Sammy is a huge tom cat. When i say huge i mean huge he weigh's about 30 pounds. And this tiny little grumpy old dog. Gives them a run for there money.


I am happy hannah is no longer here. I do not like that cat at all. She would go out of her way to piss on my bed. And she didnt care if i was still in the bed or not. The day she pissed on me was the day that hannah took her first flying lesson. I mean by flying lessons is by me kicking her off of me. And she went flying off the bed.

Even though charlie is a grumpy old man. I would rather have him around. Then hannah.

My creepy old man.

I decided it was time to put a photo up of my creepy old man. aka Tim.

I call him my creepy old man because my children think that he is creepy.

I dont think that tim is at all. Although tim calls me his old bitch. You can so feel the love!

This is starting to

Make me really mad. And i can't figure out what the hell i did! let's see if i can actually do this thing. I will be happy if i actually did. And if i did figure out, That was pretty simple. And i will feel really stupid. If that's all that it was. Since i have been trying to do this for over an hour.

My New Love

Is my 7 month old great nephew donovan. In the last 2 days were the best. Everytime donovan sees me his arms and legs are just a moving. And reaching out for me to take him. Today when i was at my niece's house. Ashia handed him to me. As she had to answer her door. Donovan fell asleep on my shoulder. He was out i held him the whole time he took his nap. I told ashia ok i am in love, Can i take him home. I get him next weekend friday night. He is spending the night. I can't wait.

Then i get him in july for the whole weekend. As ashia will be turning 21. And for her baby shower gift. I told her i would babysit for her birthday weekend. Before i came home ashia and i and donovan were jamming out to queen's boheman rahposdy. dont know if i spelt that right? We were having fun with it and donovan was just a laughing. When he seen us bobbing are heads back in forth. Like from Wayne's World. That movie is awesome. My sister cheryl said no donovan your not suppose to like auntie faye's singing.. I can't sing but i don't care i still do it! Just because i CAN!!!!

My Evil little sister!

This afternoon i got a phone call from my niece ashia. She was way upset. She was upset because my youngest sister dawn. (not ashia's mom) Ashia was crying and saying that dawn was going to turn her in and get her baby taken away from her. The reason my evil sister is doing this. Is because ashia wont find her any smoke. And ashia hasnt for awhile. Her friend marissa had told dawn that she wasn't going to do it for her anymore. Ashia had said that but not just for dawn. It was for anyone. So i went up to her house tonight and was reassure her that everything will be alright. She is drunk and pissed cuz you wont stick your neck out for her. I got her calmed down until her mom got there. (my older sister cheryl) Why does family have to be so cruel? And Backstabbing? I guess i just don't get it.

This made my day!!!!

My son zach came over today. This made me very happy. Of course the reason he came over is i had alot of stuff here for his dad. That i didn't want anymore. Photo albums of our camping trips, And trips to valley fair, and to camp snoopy at the mall of america. Which is not camp snoopy anymore. I think it's nickaloden theme park. I am not sure thou. I kept the photo's i wanted. And sent the one's i didn't want anymore. And i had alot of his clothes. I am sure his ogre will be pleased. The photo's i sent to him are the one's of us together.. And did i do this on purpose?


That would be a definite maybe..
My niece ashia says i am evil for doing that... I kind of just chuckled...
The ogre has even met me and she hate's me. And she is threatened by me for some reason.
ok enough about that.

I need to go to my mom's so she will stop calling me.

Yesterday was moving day.

We got mom all moved into her new apartment. She has been on the phone 3 times today. Wanting me to come back over. To rearrange everything that ashia and i did yesterday. So today is going to be another long and very fustrating day. I can't wait.

I hate garage sales.

Yesterday The all city garage sales started. I tried to destroy the flyer that was in the door. Before ma saw it. No luck..... She said aaaaaah faye come on let's go. As i was rolling my eyes i said fine... Mom says to me you dont like to garage sale. I said uhm that would be a NO! I said why do i want to buy other peoples garbage? They dont want it. And there to cheap to throw it away. Or to give it away.

You should of seen some of the funny looks i was getting rolling this little cart she just had to have with a bunch of other treasures she just had to have. She actually bought a jar of rocks for 50 cents. And the ugliest lamp and table combo ever.


After about an hour and a half of going from garbage sale to garbage sale. I stayed my ass in the car. I hate going and i will never like going.

Tomorrow is moving day. My niece ashia and my sister's boyfriend dave and of course me. Are moving mom out of her hole in the wall apartment in loretto. And moving her into a nice apartment here in lovely rockford. And yay she is only a block or two from me. And she talked me into keeping charlie. Her dog he is a chiuhua i dont know if i spelt that right. He is the same breed as the taco bell dog. Okay i am way tired. So i am not making any sense.

Oh i ran into allen's parent's today. During these garbage sales. Betty is a two faced bitch. Nice to my face. And talks bad about me when i leave. Oscar he is really nice to me. He don't talk bad about me behind my back.

Okay I just got done unplugging a toilet. That shonda and mike plugged up. The toilet was overflowing. Shonda came out of her room. And said faye i need your help. And i said ok with what? She started to cry and said i plugged my toilet. And now it's overflowing! I looked at her and said don't you have a plunger in your bathroom? She said yeah but i can't do it. I said are you kidding me? I was way grossed out. And i went in there and plunged her toilet. Mike wouldn't get off his lazy ass and do it. She got mad at me because i made her clean up the mess on the bathroom floor. I may be her guardian, but she is 17 and playing house with her good for nothing boyfriend mike. I gotta draw the line somewhere. The last few days is making me regret that i even agreed to do this. Those two are driving me crazy!

Shonda told me she wouldn't ask mike to do the toilet. Because she wasn't comfortable with him doing it. And i am family. She is having a baby with him. I guess i just don't get it. I told them i was on strike. Until the morning. So it quiet. Wow i cant believe it! They usually dont stop arguing. Till 1 in the morning.

Since it's actually quiet. I can go to bed. Yay!!!!

Larry the cable guy.

This morning, Before my niece and i went over to my mom's apartment. To wait for the cable guy. I needed to go up to casey's general store. To get my 44 ounce pop. And cigarette's. And the girl that worked there. Started to grab at the camel's buy one get one free. And i said Oh wow you got special's. So i ended up buying 4 buy one get one free special's. So i should be good for a few days. Now i just have to hide them from shonda and her lazy ass boyfriend.

Anyways we finally make it to the apartment building. And the cable guy arrives there at 11 something. Get's the digital cable hooked up. He had to go outside to finish hooking up the cable. And shonda asked me faye i wonder if his name is larry. And i gave her a funny look. What? She said you know like in Larry the cable guy.


So when he comes back into the apartment to show me how the remote works.. Shonda asked him. Is your name larry? And he said yes actually it is. He was only playing. He said you girls are so nieve. And chuckles..

So as he was leaving i said to him. Thank's Larry have a great day. I know i am a comedian..

I watched my movie. I now pronounce you chuck and larry. Awesome movie..Very very funny.

GRRRRR......

I am really starting to get mad.. I can't even view my own blog. And it is starting to piss me way off. Oh well i guess i dont need to view my own blog.

My week so far

This week, Has been going pretty well. On monday i was making phone calls for my mom.
She is moving into apartment. Right up the street from me. I was on the phone to direct tv, Anyways they only have options to pay your bill, And not to cancel your service. After i listen to all of there options 3 or more times, At this point i was beyond fustrated. And i finally said Alls I WANNA DO IS TO FUCKING TALK TO A REAL PERSON! Next thing i know the line starts ringing. And i got a real person. I told the lady geez i am sorry. And she started to chuckle.

So know i am slowly trying to get my mom moved in.
Tomorrow, I get to sit over at her apartment. To wait for the cable guy. Yay
And i hope that it wont be the whole day sitting there and waiting. My mom said now faye can i trust you to go over there. Without being a little horde horde horde? (which means whore in finlander) I kinda of gave her a weird look. She said well i can't take you anywhere without all kinds of men. Coming up to you and talking to you. I said oh yeah ma i got all kinds of men.

My creepy old man birthday is on friday. And i have no idea what to get him. I know what he wants..... Because for the last 2 years he has gotten it. And it don't cost no money. But it's kind of disgusting. I will leave it at that. I am sure that everyone knows what i am talking about.

The next thing i have to decide if i take my sister bobbi to court for child support. She is pretty pissed at me. Because of that... I have to take shonda up to the county to get minnesota health care. As you all know she is pregnant. And her father's medical dont cover her med's. And in order to do all that i have to take her to court for support.

Shonda wont stop calling long distance to ohio.... And i told her you need to stop making long distance phone calls during the day. And all she said is yeah i know. She has been on that phone 5 or more times to ohio today.

Okay i think i am done bitching gor now.

Oh i got a new dvd today from my son travis. I now pronouce you chuck and larry. And i can't watch it until after deal or no deal. My mom loves that show.

Yeah i am pretty happy!!!

Well the last few weeks weeks were pretty iffy, As i was saying my sister met this guy on the internet. Thru my yearbook.com Well bobbi has decided to move to ohio. She took my 11 year old niece taryn with her. Which is great. But she also has a 17 year old daughter Lashonda who is 10 weeks pregnant. So on tuesday morning bobbi said faye are you willing to br shonda's guardian? And i said yes i am. So as of tuesday June 3rd, 2008 I am shonda's legal guardian. Until her 18th birthday which is november 21st,2008 My children are not happy with this. Since tuesday. I have had alot to deal with. My younger sister bobbie left on wednesday june 4th 2008. And the first thing i had to deal with in the morning was the wright county welfare fraud investgator. Which i really didnt need in my life. I have enough in my life to deal with, Then add my sister's bull-shit on top of it..... I have way more then enough shit in my life. So i take care of all that shit. And i have to take my mom to the doctor that day, and she talks me into going because of all the lower back pain i have been having, So I make an appoinment also to pacify my mother. I wish i hadn't done so... First he does an u.a. on me which is an urnallis to see if you have anything in your urine... So i am sitting in the little room... And dr.jim comes in and says faye..... your urine is the cleaneast i have seen in a long time. that's not the problem. So Dr. Jim started to pull on my legs... And i said to him ahhh duh i have 3 metal pins in my right hip? do you think that might have something to do with it? He said uhm yeah we need to get x-rays of your right hip.... So i got these xrays, Long story short.... I have Big time arthritis in my right hip.... I am taking naprocyn.. 500 mg twice a day. And i am not suppose to drink alcohol...give me a break.... Nah it causes liver damage. So i have to think about this...lol

Pretty Friggin DUMB!!!!!

Don't ever tell a guy friend what you are going thru, Cuz he might think he is your friggin therapist, Instead of a friend. I never asked for his advice on this pecific thing, But he seems to think that i have. Don't get me wrong i have asked him for his advice on alot of things, But not on this one. And since he never reads my blog, WHO FUCKEN CARES, I don't.


I GUESS I JUST HATE FAKE FRIENDS!!!!!!

Plain and simple, Your either my friend or your not.

I DONT NEED A THERAPISTS, I ALREADY HAVE ONE!!!!!!

MY BAD FOR ACTUALLY THINKING THAT THIS PERSON WAS MY FRIEND!!

But then again he hasn't even read my blog, When i read his all the time! OH WAIT He does have a job, And I don't... ALL IN ALL MY BAD....... (CHOOSE YOUR FRIENDS WISELY)
I won't metion any names, Cuz you so do know who you are.

How Stupid can one person be?

I am really tired of my niece shonda and her boyfriend mike would quit asking me for a cigarettes! I have went thru more cigarettes since thursday. And i am really friggin tired of it.
Every 30 minutes it's auntie faye i love you. And i say yeah right you do! What do you want from me? Which is a stupid question. Cuz i already know what she wants. If she thinks she is old enough to smoke then she can buy them herself. Oh wait she is not old enough! She is only 17!
Her mom is ok with it so who am i say anything about it. Just like her mom lets her 24 year old boyfriend sleep in the same room with her. Duh this might be the reason shonda is now 2 months pregnant!

Is my sister really this fucken stupid? I know the answer to this. Uhm....... YES!!!!

Here is a little Diddy my niece wrote.......

My niece miranda wrote this little diddy for me today when we were iming today.

It goes like this.............

Yea we call her mcfaye she pretty much makes my day.
You kno when she laugh she just wants to tap jared ahah.
Yea boom chick boom chick chick boom you kno when she drunk i pretty much think shes just crunk.
Sometimes i think its all fake you kno that noise she makes on a date.
Do i have to go longer cuz i think i made her ponder or maybe just tripped.
Cuz i kno she think i trippin.

BOOM CHICK CHICK BOOM.

If that aint love..... Then what is?

The Last Two in a half weeks........

Let's see where do i start, I will start with my sister bobbie. It all started when she started talking to this guy dan. On my yearbook. Kind of like my space just a little different. Well way different. So they start messaging back in forth no big deal. Then they start iming each other, again no big deal.....Hell i so that myself. Then they start calling each other and staying on the phone. And staying on the phone sometimes until 5 a.m. And i am thinking to myself...... I hope that she plans on paying my phone bill. She was the one making the calls to him. Which was kind of pissing me way off. Not kind of pissing me off, It was really fucken pissing me off. I told her that this dan needs to be calling her, Instead of her calling him. So after they agreed to meet. He flew here from ohio.

In the meantime...... Bobbie has had her youngest daughter taryn's dad still living here. And terry had no idea what was about to hit him. Even thou he should of known that bobbie was no longer in love with him. Since they have not slept in the same room for the past 6 years. This should be a clue. That you are not wanted.... And she has told terry on a daily basis to move out. Alot of you may not know this but my sister and i live in our father's house. He does not live here. And yes he makes all the house payments. This is a whole different story. Which i will tell later.

Anyways i was saying terry had no idea what was about to hit him. And hit him good this dan flew in on a saturday (exactly 2 weeks ago) and bobbie waited for terry to leave. and she then gets ready to go and meet this guy from the internet. And i stayed and watched her girls. A few hours go by and she comes home at midnight. And not even an hour goes by and she is back out the door. And i am just thinking to myself... Are you fucken kidding me.

She then comes home on monday..... Leaving me to deal with terry the outcome was not pretty. And i was not very happy that she put all of her shit onto me. Then she proceeds to tell me that she is in love with him... FUCKEN HELLO!!!! I said Your FUCKEN KIDDING ME! You just met the man. And your in LOVE with him. And she is now planning to move to ohio. (she is there until may 30th) and i have her girls until then. Not only did she tell me she is in love with this dan. She also informed me that they are already talking about getting married! I told her this man has been married 3 times. And you don't see something wrong with this picture. I told her in the nicest possible way that i could that she is brain dead.

She has just informed when she called last.... That when and if she comes back. It will be to get taryn. GRRRRRR I am just saying she really pisses me off!