TOMORROW......

Is Family day, My ex has asked me to come over for the day. We decided that we are going to do something as a family. So we are going to the lake. And we are going to go fishing and boating. I myself don't care for fishing. But our boys love to hunt and fish. My sister cheryl asked me is allen going to cook you dinner too? I said most likely. When we were together allen did all of the cooking. My children do not like my cooking. They perfer dad's cooking to mom's.


My mom told my oldest son travis. Your mom is actually beginning to be a good cook. Travis said all's my mom knows how to cook. Is Mac and Cheese. And he is meaning the box mac and cheese. I said jeeze thatnks travis, I can cook more then just mac and cheese. His response was mom you can't even boil water without burning it. One time i boiled water and i messed it up bad. Because i walked away from it. Because my 3 children cannot behave. And i destroyed a pot. I will never live that one down.


I Am kind of leary about going over there tomorrow, As allen's ogre likes to show up whenever she wants. And i really don't want to have to deal with her shit. I also have to worry about tim finding out that i am going over there. Tim i can handle. But the ogre i just don't know how much i can put up with. Before i have to hurt an OGRE!!!

I would never do that in front of my kids. I am just saying is all. I will write more tomorrow when i get home. Who knows maybe i will get lucky...... And i won't come home..?

School Shopping......

On monday allen took our boys school shopping. Alls he got them were two pair of jeans, A few skate boarding shirts. And each a pair of skate boarding shoes. Then after he purchased the few items. He then decides to call me. Telling me how good he did. My first question to allen was where did you go to go school shopping? His reply zoomies. I said you just went to zoomies? No i went to JC Penney also. My next question to allen was, Did you get them there school supplies? He said yeah i got them pencils and notebooks. I said to allen did you get them there graphing calculators? Folders? Pens? 3 ring binders? Well no not yet. I then said to him this is why i wanted to come with you guys to go shopping. MEN!!! I could of done way better then that. My boys start school september 2nd. Zach is going to be a junior. And justin is going to be a sophmore. Jeeze i am feeling kind of old.

WHY IS IT?

That when you and a best friend, Who happens to be a man. Are very attracted to each other. And then decide to be friends with benefits. We have been friends with benefits for over 3 years. But every time . Tim finds out that i have either talked to my ex or was with him for a few hours. That he gets all anal about it? He thinks that we are having sex. Which we are not. We have argued many many times over this. I have to keep reminding him that my ex is the father of my children. And from time to time i am going to have to talk to him. This is what i don't get......

Why does tim get so anal about it if we are clearly just friends with benefits? We do tell each other that we love each other. But that was only one time. And we both were drinking. To be honest i do have alot of feelings for tim. And i guess i do love him alot. I am thinking that tim is afraid if we become more then just friends with benefits. That i am going to hurt him and leave him for my ex. See allen, tim, and myself have been longtime friends. For almost 20 years. And yes we have always been attracted to each other. But we never crossed that line. Tim respected the fact that i was with allen.

I AM JUST REALLY REALLY CONFUSED!!!! AND I WANT MORE THEN WHAT WE HAVE RIGHT NOW!

Here is something my niece miranda wrote......

My niece miranda wrote this for me yesterday. She really thinks that she is a poet.

Faye you make my day!
But seriously go get some pay.
Then you can buy some mickey d's
Or maybe you can get some nice tees.

I heard the other day you got hired!
It was mickey d's so you got fired!

Maybe you need to get yourself a nice boy?
But this time faye don't use him as a toy!

You might think that brett is hot.
If you ask me his hair looks like a tater tot!

Just so everyone knows..... I used to call tim my boy toy. And that i never was fired from mickey d's. This is just something my niece does for fun. And i guess to tease me.

THIS MAN ROCKS!

I just thought i would share this with everyone! Matt Iseman is the funniest man ever. Well besides Pauly Shore. I have been watching the style network lately. And i have come to love the show CLEAN HOUSE. I can't believe people live like that. If you haven't seen this show you should check it out. It is on wednesday night's at 10/9 central on the style network. I really like mark burnetz alot too. But i cannot find a photo of him on the internet.

TODAY I FOUND OUT.....

Today we found out if travis and jessica were having twins. And it is just one baby! And her due date is April 6th, 2009 a couple of weeks after my birthday. Nothing like being 40 and being a grandma. I am excited! I told travis that i hope that it is a girl! I have 1 step-daughter , 1 step-son, And 3 boys. So the boys out-number the girls by far. But travis wants a boy. It don't matter to me if it's a boy or a girl. I will love he/she no matter what. And i can't wait to be able to spoil he/she. I don't have much more to say. So before i start rambling on about a whole lot of nothing. I am going to go.

GUESS WHO CAME TO SEE ME TODAY?

Today i spent the day with my ex. And it actually was a good day. It just wasn't allen and i. Our boy's were with us. (so nothing happened) We had a family gathering today. And i called and asked allen if i could get the boys for the day? He asked well why? And i told him why and i said you are welcomed to come if you want? And he said sure i will come. My brother in law jeremy said that he was there just to see him. Allen just kind of gave him a dirty look. And my sister dawn said yeah right jeremy. We all know who he is here to see.. That would be me!

Then allen asked me for jessica's cell phone number. She is our oldest son's girlfriend. So i gave it to him. He had called her so he could talk to travis. A few minutes later my phone rings and it's jessica. And she goes to me uhm who do you have over at your house? I said why? She said faye you better behave. And don't be doing something stupid. I said uhm yeah i plan on behaving.

Justin and i were sitting next to each other on the couch and allen was standing there and i said to him allen you can sit down here. I don't bite! He said i know better then that. You do to bite!
Ok i am rambling on. I had a real good day.

BABY NAMES FOR MY GRANDCHILD!!!!!

Travis and Jessica have come up with a whole 3 names for baby names..... 1 girl name and 2 boy's names. I will give you the girl name first. Sophia faye, and for the boy's names is Eli travis, Or Ethan travis. Jessica is set for the girl name. But for those of you who don't know is that we find out on the 12th of this month if they are havin twins.. Jared don't like the name sophia and after we talked about it. I don't think i like it much either. I am not to keen on the middle name either, Which is my first name. My name is on the top ten list of old names. Betty is number 1 my name wasw number 2.

I told travis and jessica that they better come up with a different name for me then grandma and nana! And granny! Because i didn't want to be called any of the 3. Jessica already informed me that her and travis have talked about it. Adn they both refuse to have my grandchild call me faye! That's what i was going for. But it didn't fly. So i need some suggestions on some girl names. Does anyone know the finish language? For grandma? My grandfather is from finland but he passed away before i was born. To know any of that.

THIS IS MY JAEDEN!!!!

This photo was taken around christmas time. I haven't seen jaeden since easter. Well except for today. I was so happy to see him. And my sister dawn! For those of you who know we were fighting big time. She called me last wednesday and she kicked her good for nothing boyfriend out. Whom didnot like me what so ever. He did however take advantage of me big time! For those of you who don't know this.... I was living with my baby sister to help her out with her 4 kids.

Well nelson her ex took advantage of me being there, To also take care of his daughter samantha. Which at first i didn't mind doing. He only had her every other week. But on his week i was the only one who took care of her. I would get her up in the morning made her breakfast. etc.... I even took her to the bustop. And i did her homework with her. While he was in his bedroom doing nothing. She would come in the door and said faye this is what i have for homework. So i would help her. I didn't even get one thank you or faye you don't have to do that. Sorry now iam getting way off track.. Anyways i got to see my tater today!!! And boy did i miss him!!!!

When he left tonight he said bye auntie I LOVE YOU!!!!

I ALSO SPENT.....

The day with my oldest son's girlfriend. Jessica she called me at 7:30 this morning and said. I don't have to work today. I said ok and jessica said faye is it alright if i go to the hospital with you and grandma? I said yes you can. She don't like staying at allen's house without travis. Because the ogre is still there.

And jessica is starting to feel really uncomfortable around her. The ogre asks her non stop what i look like? Jessica tells her i dont know what you want me to say? I tell you what she looks like and that is not good enough for you. My question is why does the ogre care what i look like? I asked jessica that? And she told me faye all allen does is talk about you non stop. And she feels really threatened by you. I couldnt help but laugh not out loud though. But i did.

The ogre is pissed because allen and i are going in on buying our grandchild a crib. And a few other things. And that pisses her off. It also pissed her off because i am having the baby shower at allens house. And she is not to be there. And allen isnt going to be there either. She said why didnt anybody get my approval on anything? And why is faye going to be at the baby shower? Uhm hello dumb bitch that is my son my grandchild. And i will be there. Allen said i dont need your permission. The last time i checked this is my house. And i gave you the boot.

Is it wrong for me to be happy that he talks about me non stop to her? Cuz it actually makes me feel kind of good.

This Morning....

I finally got my mom talked into going and getting that catscan done on her lungs! She has a mass on her left lung. So we took her to the hospital this morning to get it. I couldn't believe how fast they got her in and out of there.

We will get the results back in a few days. If it is lung cancer she don't want to have surgery. As she is to week. And she is afraid she wont survive the surgery. The doctor did say there is other treatments out there.

It has been a long 3 months. My mom has been really sick and she has a real hard time breathing. She says it is the humidity and her copd. Maybe so. She could be right. But she isnt getting any better.

A week ago my niece ashia and i had to take her to the emergency room. Because she could not breathe. We were there for a good 4 hours. Until they could get her breathing stablized. They wanted to keep her. She refused to stay. In the last 3 months she has lost 10 plus pounds. She weighs 85 pounds. This to me is not good. Ok i need to stop because i am just going to keep rambling on and on.

Darrion.....

He is not mad at me anymore! He told me today over and over again that he loves me!!!! I am good for now! I have him again for the night. He wanted to stay with me. He asked me tonight faye can i spend the night? I said you have to wait until i ask your mom if you can. Alls he could say was well how about yes! How could i resist that!

I STARTED....

To do daycare for travis and jessica this week. Darrion is the cutest kid ever! He is 3 years old! Every couple of minutes he says hey travis mom? I say what darrion? He replies I LOVE YOU! And i say to him I LOVE YOU TOO! But today was a different story. I asked him if he was mad at me? He said yes. I dont like you anymore. And you need to take me to travis dads house. He was mad at me because i wouldnt let him jump on the couch! I only have him every other week. He goes to his dads every other week.

I WENT SHOPPING......

Not really. I call it shopping. In my niece kayla's closet. She has alot of shoes! So today i went over to her house and went shoe shopping. I got a brand new pair of nike's and a brand new pair of puma's. They have never been worn. I tried to talk her out of her crocks. She wasn't having it. Kayla told me today how beautiful i was. I told her she needs glasses. She said no i don't auntie. I said yes you do and very strong ones at that.