Why is it....

That my children don't like who i want to be with? But they are okay with who there dad is with? I guess i just don't get it. And i most likely won't either. My lovely children call my boyfriend..... Mom's crack-headed boyfriend! I came to the conclusion that it don't matter who i decide to be with my boy's will never be okay with it. So i also decided i am not going to make them happy by being by myself for the rest of my life. I am going to be HAPPY.... for once in my life.....And tim makes me very happy. Happier then i have ever been in my life.

I spent the day....

With my grand daughter aubrie today. She is so adorable... And let me tell you she is the biggest daddy's girl. She has gotten so big....Aubrie is 5 weeks old. I have noticed little things that she does. Her dad use to do and or like. Travis use to love getting his nose or cheeks rubbed lightly. Travis would fall right to sleep when i would do that. And aubrie does the same thing. She loves to be held. Well what baby don't? I do have more photo's of her i just got to figure out how to send them from my cell phone to my email. It might take me a few hundred hours to figure it out. I am determined to figure it out if it kills me.

This Quitting smoking......

Is for the birds. I am going to give it another try. I only made it 5 hours without. And i broke down and bought a pack. I know my bad. It is really hard. I keep talking myself into quitting. And i never seem to make for more then a few hours. When my kids where younger and i would try to quit. They would beg me to go and buy a pack of smokes. Because mommy was crabby and they didn't like that at all. So what is my excuse now? I don't have one. Besides that it keeps me sane. Or so i think it does.

Today is my last day

Of smoking. I hope that i can do it. My sister cheryl talked me into quitting with her. So i am going to give it a try. But i am not promising that i can do it. Cheryl bought us the nicoderm patches. She most likely already has hers on. Not me i still have 4 left. After there gone then i will put the patch on.


I am allergic to latex so i am in no big hurry to put the patch on. I break out in hives big time. And the hives don't go away for days after. I am still going to give it a try. I can live with the hives. So wish me luck. I really hope that i can do it.

More Photo's of Aubrie..

There not in the right order. Because it is way to early for me to figure it out. But i just wanted to share photo's of my adorable grand daughter.

My man.....

This is my man tim... we were just friends with benefits for a very long time. Like 3 years. We have decided to be more then that. I am very excited about it!! I just wanted to show off my man.

What did i get myself into....

I am cleaning my sister's house today for her. I had no idea how much i had to do! Her and my brother in law work 2 jobs a piece and she never has any time to clean. So she offered to pay me to do it. I am almost done. I am dreading doing the dog kennels. And there area. I am putting that off until the last minute. I should told her i wanted more money. So i am now regreting opening my big mouth!!!!!