I AM STILL AT ALLEN"S

Yup i am still here... And i am spending the night again. Travis is bringing me home in the morning. Allen is with his mom and dad. They went to menards to get a dehumidifier for the basement. And yes i had to go into hiding while they were here. He said i didn't have too. That i was just here visiting the kids. I said uhm yeah that will fly. I am wearing your clothes. Cuz mine are all wet. Don't ask long story. Ok i will tell you. We were outside sitting at the fire. And i had to go to the bathroom. And i didn't want to go in the house. So my bright idea was to pee along side of the house. Well Charlie knock me over on my ass right into a muddle puddle. And that is my story and i am sticking to it.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME......

I am still here hiding in allen's room. It's going on 2 hours now. And i am having a real hard time trying to be quiet. I am so not good at being quiet.... DID I METION I HAVE TOO PEE, AND THAT I NEED A SMOKE. Allen is so going to pay dearly for hiding me from his dad. They really need to hurry up and finish putting that hot water heater in. Does it realy take 2 hours to put in a hot water heater? I could of had it done by now. And i wouldn't have to hide allen in my bedroom. From my parents.

THIS IS NOT EVEN RIGHT!!

Allen has me hiding in his bedroom. From his dad! His parents are weird. We are adults and he has to hide me from his dad. I asked him what are you going to get grounded for having me over? I have been in here for over an hour. Our son travis just got home. I wonder what he will think? After grandpa leaves? I am really starting to get kind of pissy.. Cuz i gotta be very quiet, I can't smoke....... AND MOST IMPORTANTLY I HAVE TO PEE!!! Hopefully i wont be in here for very much longer. If i am i will keep you posted.

LAST FRIDAY.......

I Spent the day with my ex. And our 2nd oldest zach. Allen had asked me if they could pick me up in the morning? I said well what time do i need to be ready? Allen said i will be there at 9 to pick you up. I said okay i will be ready.. Little did i know he wanted me to clean his house, Do his laundry, So i did all these things for him. Not only for him but for our children. He has a 5 bedroom house. All hardwood floors throughout the house. Which is nice to have but sucks to keep clean. There is 4 guys in the house and our oldest son travis' girlfriend. How do i say this in the nicest possible way....... THEY ARE ALL FRIGGIN PIGS!!!!! Allen said he would pay me to clean..... For all the floors nasty bathrooms, all the laundry i did. He Gave me 20.00, When he handed me the money i gave him a look and he said what? Alls i said was are you KIDDING ME? His reply was well i shouldn't have to pay you to clean up after our kids! Ok point taken Our boys are 20,17, 15. There is no reason under the sun that they cannot clean. So basically i got paid for washing his clothes, folding them and putting them away.

I did spend the night with him. Our boys where supposably at work. But they didn't come home until 2 a.m. Zach said his car broke down. I looked at my cell phone and his dad's cell phone and i said why didn't you call? And don't tell me you tried. Zach said he forgot too. Okay we will deal with it in the morning.

Allen and i did go out on his 4 wheeler, Which was fun i haven't done that in a long time. We went around the lake. It was kind of chilly. And when we got back we started a fire and sat out at the fire for 5 hours. We had a case of beer, And it was gone by morning. We had fun.. Until he gave me his password for his computer. And he didn't sign out of his yahoo. So i was being noisy and i went into his mail. I will leave it at that. Because what i found really pisses me way off,

TOMORROW......

Is Family day, My ex has asked me to come over for the day. We decided that we are going to do something as a family. So we are going to the lake. And we are going to go fishing and boating. I myself don't care for fishing. But our boys love to hunt and fish. My sister cheryl asked me is allen going to cook you dinner too? I said most likely. When we were together allen did all of the cooking. My children do not like my cooking. They perfer dad's cooking to mom's.


My mom told my oldest son travis. Your mom is actually beginning to be a good cook. Travis said all's my mom knows how to cook. Is Mac and Cheese. And he is meaning the box mac and cheese. I said jeeze thatnks travis, I can cook more then just mac and cheese. His response was mom you can't even boil water without burning it. One time i boiled water and i messed it up bad. Because i walked away from it. Because my 3 children cannot behave. And i destroyed a pot. I will never live that one down.


I Am kind of leary about going over there tomorrow, As allen's ogre likes to show up whenever she wants. And i really don't want to have to deal with her shit. I also have to worry about tim finding out that i am going over there. Tim i can handle. But the ogre i just don't know how much i can put up with. Before i have to hurt an OGRE!!!

I would never do that in front of my kids. I am just saying is all. I will write more tomorrow when i get home. Who knows maybe i will get lucky...... And i won't come home..?

School Shopping......

On monday allen took our boys school shopping. Alls he got them were two pair of jeans, A few skate boarding shirts. And each a pair of skate boarding shoes. Then after he purchased the few items. He then decides to call me. Telling me how good he did. My first question to allen was where did you go to go school shopping? His reply zoomies. I said you just went to zoomies? No i went to JC Penney also. My next question to allen was, Did you get them there school supplies? He said yeah i got them pencils and notebooks. I said to allen did you get them there graphing calculators? Folders? Pens? 3 ring binders? Well no not yet. I then said to him this is why i wanted to come with you guys to go shopping. MEN!!! I could of done way better then that. My boys start school september 2nd. Zach is going to be a junior. And justin is going to be a sophmore. Jeeze i am feeling kind of old.

WHY IS IT?

That when you and a best friend, Who happens to be a man. Are very attracted to each other. And then decide to be friends with benefits. We have been friends with benefits for over 3 years. But every time . Tim finds out that i have either talked to my ex or was with him for a few hours. That he gets all anal about it? He thinks that we are having sex. Which we are not. We have argued many many times over this. I have to keep reminding him that my ex is the father of my children. And from time to time i am going to have to talk to him. This is what i don't get......

Why does tim get so anal about it if we are clearly just friends with benefits? We do tell each other that we love each other. But that was only one time. And we both were drinking. To be honest i do have alot of feelings for tim. And i guess i do love him alot. I am thinking that tim is afraid if we become more then just friends with benefits. That i am going to hurt him and leave him for my ex. See allen, tim, and myself have been longtime friends. For almost 20 years. And yes we have always been attracted to each other. But we never crossed that line. Tim respected the fact that i was with allen.

I AM JUST REALLY REALLY CONFUSED!!!! AND I WANT MORE THEN WHAT WE HAVE RIGHT NOW!