Deer Hunting Season....

Deer Opener.. My Dad's hunting party actually got all there deer this year. 6 Bucks. No Noone got a doe permit this year. All the years i have been around deer hunting. I never really actually thought about the poor deer. Until last night. Was the first time i ever had to help my brother in law hang 3 deer from the garage rafters. By the time i was finished helping him. I was all full of blood. Deer hair. And did you know that when you kill a deer that there tongues hang out? That is the most disgusting thing ever. My sister took pictures of me getting totally grossed out by helping. But she is emailing them to me. And i really truly don't think i will posting them anyways. That's about all i have to write about for now.

November 3rd...

It has been 9 years since i even wanted to use meth. I haven't touched it since november 3rd, 1999. I have lost everything and everyone that I Love more then life itself. Because of it. If i would of known back then that this drug would change my life. I would of never used it. I can't take back what is done. When i decided or should i say Court Ordered to go into treatment. I really didn't have alot of faith in myself. A friend of mine had also went into treatment for the same thing. And she started using the minute she got home. I did not want to get out of treatment. And start using the second i got home. My counsler asked me why i want to stay clean. My answer was..... I am here to get clean for my children. She told me that was the wrong answer. I said no it's not the wrong answer. I am here to get myself clean for them and only them. Alot of you know that my children with there father. Except for our oldest. We live together. I am getting off track.... Anyways 9 years later i am still clean. I have had alot of shit to deal with in the past 9 years. Somehow i did it. I don't need it. Nor do i want it.

Football sucks.....

I hate sunday's with a passion. All there is to watch is football. And The Minnesota Vikings really are not all that great. Granted i have no idea what's going on. But i do know one thing they sure do SUCK!!! I think my son likes to irritate me by changing the channel from one game to the next. So my plan for him tonight is to watch Toby Keith's premiere on cmt Beer For My Horses. Travis does not like toby keith. So it is payback time for the mom. This will be FUN!!

We are all moved in.

It seemed like it took forever to move in. It was only alot of work. And since i tore all the ligiments in my knee. Made it alot more work. There is Alot of stairs in this house. Last saturday my sister dawn came over and rescued me..... We went bar hopping and had alot of fun. We didn't stay out to late. But as she was pulling into the driveway. I said to her could you park any closer to the rocks? She said oh you have plenty of room to walk... Famous last words. I was carrying a case of beer mind you they were bottles the next thing i know i am laying face first in the driveway laughing my ass off... And told my sister see i knew you were trying to kill me. She comes back laughing did you break any of the bottles? I said i don't know if i did. Still laughing. So i get up my son is laughing at us. Because as i was kneeling down to pick something up my sister decides to get on my shoulders, We made it up the steps just barely. But we did. Okay i am rambling on and it is getting late. And i need to get rest. As my sister and i are off again tomorrow night to the local bar for a halloween party. And my son is going to be the sober cab.

Tomorrow is Moving Day...

Once again i am moving! This is a move that i want to make. I am slowly repairing my relationship with my oldest son travis. I am really looking foward to it. I am not looking forward to the constant cleaning up after everyone. But i look at it this way. It's going to be better then putting up with my mother.

For the last 2 weeks i have not been at my mother's. I have been out at my sister's house. Taking care of my nephew. Jaeden he is coming over to my house next week. So i can take him out trick or treating. I always take him out. I don't have alot to write about. Except for that i am very happy now that i am not constantly being bitched at.

I AM FINALLY OUTTA HERE......

I am moving in with my son travis and his girlfriend jessica. And Travis' best friend. I found out today that i was moving with them. Travis said mom i don't like how grandma bad mouth's you around me. And behind your back. So that's when he asked me if i wanted to move in with them. Of course i said yes right away. He is moving out of his dad's house. We are rent with option to own 5 bedroom house. I can't wait until october 24th. It already feels like forever.

I AM REALLY GOING TO EMBRASE MYSELF...

I dressed up in my niece kayla's chef's hat and apron last night. Cuz that's just me. And i was walking around my house saying. I amchef hong kong fooey..... And my nieces and my beloved son travis decided they were going to take pictures of me in this get up. All 3 of them were laughing and said come on mom and auntie smile. I said uhm yeah right. And i stuck my tongue out at them. Little did i know my niece's put this pic up of me on there myspace, etc..... So now like a dummy i am going to share with you.